I've been slacking.
There's really no other way to put it.
Sometimes the mind set is: One bad meal ='s one bad day ='s one bad week ='s one bad month...
I NEED to retrain my brain.
I'll do okay for a few days, and then I'll have an off day, and I need to try hard to get back on track. I need to learn the word no. I need to learn that its okay to treat myself to something small, but I don't need something BIG. or TWO. or I can pass on something every once in awhile.
The easiest thing to do right now, would be to slump back into my old habits. To become who I know I'm better then. It's really hard to not be the person you've known your whole life. It's hard to want to better yourself, and not have the energy every day to fight the battle of losing weight. It's extremely hard to wake up every morning, get ready for the day- feeling like you are a beautiful person, and then throughout the day, see pictures of yourself, or look at yourself in a mirror and feel like you don't look good at all. Know that you have problems.
I want to impress people. Impress people with my strength and determination to be a better ME.
I have nothing to prove to anyone, but I still want to let it be known that I'm capable of bettering myself into the person I know that I can be.
I am SO happy in my life. I love my boyfriend. I love my family. I love my friends. I have a great job. An AMAZING support system. I have so many good things going on in my life. I am so beyond blessed for the things that I have in my life. I have never ever been deprived, nor went without.
But I'm not happy in my own skin.
and that's not okay.
Thank you for continuing to help my along my journey. I was afraid to weigh in this morning. So since the last time I weighed in- last Sunday- I was still around my 17lbs down mark, for the year. I will weigh in again next Sunday, hopefully permitting I have a better week then I did this last week.
It's hard when people auto-assume I'm at my "plateau".... no- I've just been lazy.
I just need to control my mind, and put my mind over matter.
