I'm a little proud of myself! The last two days I got out of bed at 4:45.... in the AM... and walked an hour before work! yeah.. me!! I know! Right?! Banked 4 hours on the mill since Sunday!!
My knees are killing me.. but they're tired. so- that's that... and my shin splints come and go depending on if they like me or loath me. Some days I can walk for awhile on a 3-5 incline, and other days they beg me to slow it down on a zero (incline that is... not a zero speed!). Its crazy how far one way to the other it can be.
I've tried to be good about calories.. I was under on Sunday, about right at yesterday, and then under again today! And that isn't counting my exercising calories!! :)
and I drink water like its free. which - is funny - cause we actually go and fill water at the store! :D
-okay.. I thought it was funny.
If you're wondering what my basic meals are.. during the week, my breakfast and lunch is pretty much the same, and pretty basic.
-Breakfast: Smoothie... Scoop of chocolate Whey, cup of unsweetened Almond milk, cup of frozen strawberries, and a full banana... I usually eat that after my walk (when I get it in...) or first thing when I start work... then I start in on my water about an hour after.
-Lunch: Chicken... somewhere between 5-8ozs... we just decreased the oz this week to 5-5.5.. it was a good change! I also have 2 hardboiled eggs.. and a cheese stick! (really I just like to pull it apart and eat it in strips! :D)
If I have snacks, its usually something I know the measurement of.... grapes, peanut butter balls (great to pop a few in the middle of the night when I wake up with the feeling of a headache coming!), gold fish, or cereal bars/fig bars. 100 calorie bags of popcorn (buy off amazon! seriously. WAY better deal than the store!!) and I enjoy the occasional cup of hot chocolate.. sometimes fat free, sometimes regular!
Dinner is whatever we're feeling.. we create our meals and shop accordingly on Friday afternoon or Saturday. we try to be easy, but not too bland, so that we're keeping meals enjoyable!!
As I said the other day... I track everything!!! even a few gold fish.. I track! It doesn't always spark a "oh, I shouldn't eat that" as much as it keeps me in line to know when in the future this meal or that choice wasn't the BEST.
we've now given it 3 tries and I cannot tell you it'll be okay! I want to give it one more try- I want to try to make it into fried rice (obviously fried cauliflower) but that's my last shot. if it isn't good by then, I'm done.
I gave it a fair shake! I feel like 3-4 honest tries, made different ways.. that's more than I'll give some things!!
I haven't been sleeping well. My fitbit will basically tell you I'm up and down all night. If I had my way, I'd go to bed between 8 and 9... since I'm getting up earlier now.... but when I go lay down, my head is just racing and I cant stop! yesterday it took about 30 mins to fall asleep... the night before, about 25. maybe there's a secret out there? its not like I'm entranced in a show or anything.. cause hello, DVR... (I mean..sometimes sisterwives.. but seriously. DVR!!)
but I just get to a point in my day, where I'm no longer tired.
WHAT?!!! Me? Cant sleep? this is the girl that could sleep ANYWHERE, ANY time!!!!
yeah.. I know!
One nice thing... my jeans are not tight. - EVERY time I had to go jean shopping, I'd tell myself... I'm NOT going up another damn size again. I will NOT do it. but, then reality comes around, and I need another pair, and guess what - I gained weight. there is no choice but to go naked, or go up a size...... let me tell you- I never went naked. thank goodness - I guess. but, seriously. in the back of my mind- I was like... well, I guess if I gain the weight, I'll just have to figure it out. jeans get tight... I'll figure it out...... its a horrible mind process. I haven't tried on my other pair yet, since I pretty much only wear jeans when I leave the house - but I'm hopeful that they'll be somewhat loose.
Perks of working from home #324435: I LIVE in leggings. its a beautiful, comfortable life! ;)
((that is, until you realize you've gotten WAY too comfortable in pants that don't have to button.))
This:
I have before pictures from a few years ago- that I'm even bigger than now.. but I wont take them in a sports bra. Tee-shirt and pants work for me.
I don't think I'll look back and wish I did, either.
I don't think its anything I want to see, nor anyone else.
I think just continuing to take care of myself, and be supportive of my husband.. that is my main goal and focus right now!
After my last post, the amount of love, encouragement, and respect I was shown, was amazing. There are literally no words to express how blessed I felt with the amount of people who reached out. Even those who just read it, are helping my journey as well.. because I know people are going to be holding me accountable. That is SO important in a journey like this. It is NOT easy, and I'm not going to pretend that it is going to be. It is SO easy to get here. but it is SO hard to come from here. I follow people on social media that I see go from a heavier weight than I was, to a much lower weight than I am... I know its possible. but, I know that sometimes it takes a village. sometimes you need people behind you cheering you on. even if you don't admit it.
I know I'll need to get to a point where I work even harder. I know just walking on the mill an hour or two a day is not going to be enough... I know I need to get back in the gym and join those classes, or work on those weights.. but I'm proud of myself for where I'm at as of yet!
23lbs down!! about 145ish to go!
:)
love to all-
larissa
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