Yesterday, was Day One of this new "lifestyle".. I thought I was doing pretty well. Started with a bagel and cream cheese.. which I only used about 1/2 the serving of cream cheese.. and a banana. Then, since I didn't have lunch at work (I only worked a 5 hour shift) when I took a 15min break I wanted to get a snack. So I proceeded to the vending machine, and attempted to get the bag of pretzels (pretty much one of the only things I could have) and accidentally pushed the wrong button... It gave me Chili Cheese Frito's... UGH!!!!! I CANT HAVE THOSE!!!!!!!! I was so angry. So I did the good thing, and didn't eat them. However, then I didn't get a snack.
Due to getting out of work late, I ended up getting home to change for my next job late, in which I didn't get to fix some lunch. So- unfortunately I did have to stop for a bite.. I did however go to Taco Time, and only got a soft-taco and no mexi-fries... I was at least partly good. Then I had a few wheat thins as a snack at work.. and then for dinner was meeting with a friend, so I did end up going out. But I only drank water, and tried to be decent with my choices.
It wasn't exactly the easiest first day.
Today, Day Two.. has been another challenge. I again started my day with a bagel and light cream cheese.. and some fruit snacks. But, my lunch, was mostly unappetizing. I packed a really good salad that I prepared for myself, a bag of grapes, some fruit snacks, and a bottle of water. After a new bites of salad, it was nasty to me. So I didn't finish it.
By the time I left work, I was so overly tired, it was all I could do to get home.
After getting home, I needed a nap. I had the worst headache. Thought I was going to be sick. It took most of the night, some medicine, a nap, and then going to get dinner to start to lose the horrid pain going on.
I feel like if this is what its going to be like EVERY DAY, I don't know how much, or how long, I'll be able to handle it!!!!! :(
The biggest question I keep getting, which is hard on me is- "Now, your planning on exercising, right?" ..of course I am!!! And I fully intend on doing so. However, trying to change from anything, to water.. and then change most all of my eating habits.. the last thing I want to add to my plate is exercising.
I know that I need to. But I'm dreading it...
There will be a day, when I have everything down to a science, and I feel more comfortable adding in the working out, and knowing it really does go hand in hand. But as it is right now, I'm just so exhausted in my every day to day living that its hard to even think about it.
I cannot wait until I'm no longer just flat out dead tired. I cannot wait to feel good about getting up an hour or so earlier then I need to, just to spend some time on me. Feel like I can accomplish anything. Know that I'm capable to do anything I put my mind to.
This is a lot harder then I need it to be. Whether or not it has to be, it is. I feel like an 80 year old trapped in a 24 1/2 year olds body.
3 comments:
Okay, for one, don't let people talk to you like that! That sounds so negative for them to say that to you when they need to stay positive for the changes you are making. For two... exercise is only like 20% of weight loss, it's all about the food! People seem to think if you exercise your butt off weight will just fall off... not true. I worked out maybe one day a week, ate healthy daily for 4 months straight and lost 36lbs. All I can say is... just take your dogs for a walk. I know you're tired but I find walks liberating and relaxing... I even started to run a little, and I hate running.
Now - about those snacks... sounds to me like you need a bag of almonds on hand at all times or you need to invest in some KIND bars. They are loaded with protein to help you stay full. They are delicious and totally only made with like maybe 7 ingredients... all of which you can pronounce (because they are natural). I take one with me every day in my purse just in case I'm out and "forget" to eat.
And about your lunch... I'm typing this as I gag down a salad I made. I'm not exactly a fan of homemade salads... they just taste better from restaurants... but you have to eat! Even if you it makes you cry lol.
Let me start this off with... I just had an awesome response on my phone, and the thing wouldnt post. UGH! then I lost it!!!!
SO!
Thanks for the tips- I got the idea from another friend as well, that I need to grab up some almonds! lol..
Where do you get this KIND bar? is it anywhere or somewhere in particualr? I'll havta do something like that, too- cause I wanted to get a granola bar or something, and that seems like a good idea.
This morning I got up early and started making a pasta.. hopefully it turned out ok.. it looks super soupy.. but I'll have plunty of trial and error in no time! so hopefully when I have it for dinner tonight at work, it'll do the trick!
I also put together some separate bags of wheat thins and grapes, so I can grab and go.. hopefully that'll cut down on my laziness of not wanting to stand around and throw it together at the last min.
Have you any thoughts on Slim-Fast? Tried it? Heard anything? Good/Bad.. Pros/Cons? Feedback? Let me know! Cause thats also a thought of mine... to do with a banana or something in the morning... or some sort of protein shake... it'd be super easy to grab and go since usually mornings are the worst for me...
KIND bars - anywhere you shop should have them! Even gas stations do but they are even more expensive there! I also order them by the box off amazon when I find a flavor I like... granola bars aren't good for you... all the ingredients they put in them.. bad, bad stuff.
Slim-fast = chemicals in your body your body doesn't recognize as food. Also, no good. Just eat! And eat often. Small healthy meals and snacks is the way to go. But always, and I mean ALWAYS make sure you eat at LEAST 1200 calories. If you eat less, your body goes into starvation mode. You lose a lot in the beginning then it's like impossible to lose... sounds crazy but it's true. I totally feel like I'm my PT lecturing you (like she does to me) but this is all stuff drilled into my head now and I will always eat according to these rules she has taught me... I just lack in portion control. The main thing you want to do is EAT CLEAN. Fresh is best. Processed anything is bad. A rule to live by while grocery shopping: stick to the outside perimeter of the store. I'm sure you've heard that one before! Okay, I'm done nit picking (for today) :]
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