This has been much harder for me, then I ever imagined it would be. I guess I just like food way too much.
I think the other problem, is I don't know when to stop.
Put food in front of me, and I chow.
I guess what I'm going to do now, is create a meal plan. Use my Sunday evening to prepare for the week. And stick to it.
I've gained some of the weight I worked at losing, back.. and I'm really disappointed with myself.
I know the only person I've let down is myself, but that's a pretty big deal when I'm doing this FOR myself.
The hard part about my day, is I'm up at 4am. I leave for work about 5:15 and if I have the time, I make a smoothie and grab a granola bar, and eat it on the way to work. Then I don't have lunch until 10:15. At that point, I eat whatever I've brought, or go buy something because I don't always have time to make my lunch. Big problem for me. Then I'm off at 3, and the reality is, if I didn't force myself to eat dinner some days, I might not eat... Because I'm not even hungry most days, but its been almost 6 hours since I ate lunch by the time I get home... And I know that's NOT good for me. So then I end up eating whatever is convenient, which is usually nothing good as well.
If I spend Sunday preparing for my week, then I wouldn't have to worry the morning of what I'm going to have that day. I also need to prepare snacks of fruits and veggies to eat on my breaks. That way I'm not so overly tired all day as I usually am.
I'm still trying to get my 4 liters of water in every day.. Some days I'll add in some crystal light packets, with the caffeine boost to help pick me up a little.. problem with those, is they have aspartame, and I've been trying to avoid that.
I still get my headaches every once in awhile, and I was thinking the aspartame might be to blame?!! But I NEED something to wake me up around 12:45, cause I'm about to crash! I basically only drink water, and its not exactly something that jolts me up!! And when I get my headaches, they usually last me a good 3-4 days. :(
Lastly, I NEED to get into the gym. I'm really upset with myself, for how lazy I am. I'm the only person to blame, but I'm SO tired. My schedule kicks my butt. I LOVE my job, but let me tell you! I work REALLY early!!!! I feel like the more tired I am, and not doing anything to better myself, is causing me to be grumpy and angry, which is causing me to come off that way to other people.
I'm going to try that "no complaining". I'm going to think before I say something that might bother me, because its definitely worse for someone else. I'm going to hope that it'll also take that grey cloud out from above my head. It's not hard to enjoy life. especially when you have things really good. I have a lot of good things going on in my life. I cannot keep letting little things get to me.
My idea of this meal planning- is going simplistic. Getting fruits, veggies, and chicken. Cutting and cooking it up on Sunday, and making my basic meals through the week.
If you have other ideas for basic things to do, please don't hesitate to offer. I need easy!
